Subscribe to new posts- “Bloody Sunday” 1920 was a major part of grandad’s life. November 20, 2020I first remember meeting my grandfather Richard (Dick) Lanigan in the winter of 1962, I was a young boy, my parents had decided to split up and men sister Eleanor and I were sent to live with my fathers parents who I hardly knew. He was taller than everyone and … Continue reading → The […]
- August 2013; The end of the beginning or beginning of the end? Chapter 1 April 5, 2019As many friends will know I have been writing a memoir for a few years. Its about my experience with cancer and Cannabis Oil, this is the first chapter, my lowest point in the journey. The consultant had taken away all hope and according to the government, it is illegal … Continue reading → The […]
- Given just months to live; then “spontaneous remission”, a miracle or just cancer sense? May 14, 2017Every year I am offered an appointment with an oncologist to see how I am, it’s usually with a registrar rather than a consultant. If it’s one I know I will start the conversation with “don’t look so depressed because I am alive and cancer free just because it was not … Continue reading → The […]
- Reaching 60 years was my second milestone and I realised “incurable” just means the doctors don’t know how to fix it. March 21, 2017In August 2013 doctors gave me a death sentence! With that ” power gaze” the philosopher Michel Foucault described, they took away all hope and told me to prepare for the end. I searched the medical literature for some encouragement and the best I could find stated; no one had … Continue reading → The […]
- “October” is not Cancer month, every fucking month is. October 21, 2016Hate this shit that shows up on my profile on Face Book no doubt because the C word comes up often and the assume I am interested and might give to a cancer charity. October is not cancer month, if you have cancer its every fucking month. I cant even … Continue reading → The […]
- “Bloody Sunday” 1920 was a major part of grandad’s life. November 20, 2020
If the mind is not right, the body wont heal.
Cancer! what was I to do? My mother would know.
I had seen the tumour on the screen, the doctors face, I did not need to wait for the biopsy. The nurse told me I would be having CT and MRI scans the following week. Their sense of urgency and my clinical knowledge left me in no doubt the biopsy … Continue reading
Whats that lump? I ask.
On the 15 of March I had my appointment with the consultant at Kingston hospital. By now I was seeing small streaks of blood on my poo. Your mother had cancer in her bowel he asked. What age was she when she died? Fifty four, I said my 54th birthday … Continue reading
Be aware of your usual bowel habits and changes in stool formation
On March 4th I went to the doctor because for the previous few weeks my bowel habits had changed. Normally I would poo once a day in the morning after getting up and over the last few weeks I have been going a number of times during the day and … Continue reading